Sunday, October 10, 2010

Not terribly uplifting...

*insert awkward bra joke here*

Hello my dearest blog readers. My, how much you have grown in the time since I haven't blogged! Come over here so I can measure you. *gestures* *makes pencil marks on wall*

I've been very busy of late with senior year and college searches and plans for things and I've just been feeling a bit overwhelmed. Yesterday, I was really tired while doing scholarship research, and I all of a sudden just felt like crying. Does that ever happen to you?

I'm quite alright, I was just tired and stressed, but it made me realise something-- I mean fully realise. I have a very happy personality. 

I do not get depressed, I rarely get angry with people. But one thing that does get to me is seeing other people in any sort of pain. I want so desperately to show everyone how to not get stressed about things, why they shouldn't get worked up about this or that. But I can't. Everyone is wired differently, and I can't just go inside and change someone's inner workings.
I'm sorry this isn't a very uplifting post. I tried to start out light-hearted, but it didn't work out. I suppose it should end soon. I'd just like to leave it at this:

There are sucky things in life, and it is easy for them to seem so much more influential than the awesome things. But the awesome things can be hugely influential, too. Who cares if this group of people doesn't like me? They are not necessary to my happiness. There ARE people out there who care about me. And lastly: communication is so, so, so important. It can save a lot of trouble, anger, stress.

With so much love,


  1. *Nods in assent* All of the above.

  2. I agree, and I needed to hear that. I am a very "dwell on the sucky things" kind of person naturally, but I've been trying to get better about that in recent years.

    For instance, I am struggling to maintain a decent grade in calculus and I'm at that point with rehearsal where things are falling apart too frequently.

    However, I may have just gotten added to my school library's resource web page.

    So instead of freaking about my GPA and whatnot, I will dwell of the inherent awesomeness of librarians.

    As should all of us.